Sometimes I wish my thoughts can get posted down without having to go to blogger and compose a blogpost all by myself from scratch. LOL. I need a... A thought catcher HAHAHAHAHA, too many thoughts running around my mind all the time, too lazy to jot it all down and poof it escapes ! HAHAHAHAHA.

A super heavy load off my mind today- I finally managed to book my driving test date :) I dont like how cdc is so dictatorial about how many lessons more I should take, its like they are out to earn my money more than anything else. Like really it isnt logical to get someone who doesnt know me/my progress to recommend how many more lessons I need -.- Nevertheless, having completed all my modules, its not like I actually have a choice so yay, 6august here I comeeeeee and I wont spend a single cent more on the stupid school cuz I WILL PASS MY TP :D :D I just hope I wont feel the jitters as the date comes nearer D:

As Im turning 19 in just about 11 days' time, it feels like everything is getting more important. Every little thing in my life isnt just like anything or whatever, its like...... They all matter. Regardless of how little or great something may seem, it seems more important to set it all to perfection and success. Every failure seems to weigh more now cuz theres always a voice in me saying "hey you are no longer a little girl. go all out to do the best you can, dont accept anything but the best from yourself". It just feels as though I can do better cuz Im older already. Being young used to be an excuse for everything, but not anymore.

I dont need anything materialistic in my life. At 19, I think Im pretty mature in this aspect. HAHA. I think if you can carry something off well, you just can. You can be someone very charismatic carrying a bag of a normal brand and have people wonder where you got your bag from. Or, you can be someone that cannot carry off a branded bag and have people wonder if whatever youre carrying is even authentic. Which would you prefer? Anyway does it even matter? I am SO thankful Im not blindly blind conscious. Yes I am saying this in a sacarstic manner. Are you guilty of it?

I think nothing beats the acknowledgement from your friends and family that they care. Letters with heartfelt words mean much more than gucci wallets and what not-.-

But then again, birthdays make me scared. Afraid of disappointment, afraid of expectations. I wish expectations never made their presence in this aspect. Mega ultimately annoying. Wellllllllll all I hope is for a HAPPY birthday this year :) My last 1x birthday SOBZ. Okay actually I dont want to NOT be 18 ): Shao nu shi ba yi duo hua, 19 not hua already :( :( :(

Thoughts, thoughts and thoughts. I spent my last birthday with dearest, in fact I spent my birthday with her for the past two years. Met her on saturday afew days back to shop at bugis hahahaha. Our favourite ! Like we always say, its not about being tan xiao pian yi, but rather being smart about how we shop. Since we almost dont wear our clothes for more than once ever, whats the point of going for branded clothes ( OF WHICH TAGS ARE INSIDE NOT OUTSIDE, MEH. ) ? Hahahahaha love shopping at bugis with her ! Damn fun we always criticise this and that, compare prices and what not and we bought same shirts again :) :) Didnt walk for long cuz she was tired, and so we headed for mong kok hk cafe for dinner, where we just had our usual catch up session :) Attempted to try something new, some double boiled soup with noodles but eew it was just lousy. Maggi mee soup more than double boiled soup -_-


Father's day was on sunday but meh, no pictures cuz apparently I dont think guys really like to take pictures, nor do they like to like celebrate events and stuff. Lol. Kinda weird cuz as a girl I totally like to celebrate everything. Even nothing to celebrate also can find things to celebrate hahahahaha. It was just a simple celebration dinner at pow sing, nomnom as good as ever ! I enjoyed everything and almost died eating cuz dinner was only 4hours after a heavy sakura buffet lunch with my special ones :) It was tough trying to find a date that laoqian actually booked out + everyone was free but it was all worth it ! Reasonable price + alot alot alot of food hahahahaha ate until we almost died wheee. 5KG5KG5KG LOL. Inside joke hahahahaha. Lober was literally bian zou bian chi, she totally doesnt need a seat teehee. Nothing much to talk about though cuz it was basically purely busy eating LOL


And after almost exactly a year since the last time I went to jb was a year ago on my birthday itself, I managed to go into jb again, this time with lober, korkor dearie and monsteryeo! :) It was a terribly early morning to have to wake up but it was all worth the trip ! We kinda took the long way though, not knowing that there were other buses that could take us directly to checkpoint, though now we do ! We travelled a long way to reach little india to gather and then took a long bus ride all the way to checkpoint again -_- It was a good 30+km wth, though it really didnt feel like we travelled that far when we eventually reached. Took 170 all the way in till we finally reached city square mall and the first thing we did - Lunch ! HAHAHAHA IT WAS SO DAMN CHEAP LESS THAN RM100 for the entire meal and we had soooo many dishes in ke ren lai restaurant :) I think its a pretty good deal at a place of that standard, considering that its probably the safest place you can be in jb :) Love eating places like this WHY SINGAPORE SO EXPENSIVE even coffeeshop also cant beat the price -_-


Walked around and attempted to shop for stuff, we actually got similar tees, all four of us ! HAHA. Lober got it in grey, korkor dearie's in black, monsteryeo's in white and mine in yellow ! Super cool vip pass shirt HAHAHAHA YAY WE CAN WEAR TGT ! I cant believe we actually got a special shirt tgt LOL. Cant wait to wear it out together yay ! Got super cheap denim shorts alsooooooooo hahahahhaha glad I took the risk :) Arcade for some games, even their token damn damn damn cheap wth like half the price of sg -.- We headed off for tebrau city shopping centre after that just to explore around cuz its supposedly the biggest shopping centre in jb, and the ride there was pretty scary. We met crazy scammers on the overhead bridge which I really dont wanna talk about, and travelled there via a bumpy and dubious bus ride. Nothing much there but ohwell, we managed to spend an awesome time going crazy at toys r us LOL. We went back after touring the place for abit cuz it was dinner time but there wasnt anything much to eat, so we settled for swensens ( aka seasons -.- ) back at city square ! Like seriously, sgd 5+ for a main course + soup -.- Where to findzxzxzzz. Super didnt feel like leaving the city of cheap food but ohwell we headed back after that and korkor dearie lost his phone on the way bahhhhhhhhhhhhh curse you stupid person who refused to return it !


I mean seriously, how would you feel when you lose something important? You'd wish that the person will return it right? SO WITH ALL THESE BAD KARMA HOW WOULD YOU EVEN EXPECT ANYONE TO RETURN ANYTHING TO YOU WHEN YOU REFUSED TO RETURN SOMEONE'S PHONE YOU TELL ME. I hope you drop the phone and the phone spoils SO YOU CANT GET ANYTHING FROM IT. Why people so bad one !!!!

If only the world was kinder. Speaking of which, these few days I kinda realized that I judge people wrongly. In the modelling industry, its each for her own but... There are people who arent selfish, and are willing to share. And those that I thought would, are those that just pretend that they are more than willing to share WHEN there is the chance ( OH RIGHT YOU TOTALLY WOULD ) , while those that I thought wouldnt immediately shared their sources. Damn I feel so bad to have judged.

But of course, some cheap ones are still as cheap as ever. Its damn obvious really, when some people get jobs after some shots are taken. What link do you expect me to establish between the two?

Havent seen superglue in 3mths wtf, finally gna meet her tomorrow yayness, followed by SOMETHING BORROWED WITH MY SPECIAL ONES YAY. Its a thin line between love and friendship. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA IVE BEEN SAYING THAT SINCE FOREVER.

Time for the kevin cheng hk show :) Toodles ! :)