I really really really want to blog but Im just so lazy to pen everything down letter for letter, word for word. There were afew occasions on the past few nights when I just wanted to pen down what I was thinking, even though no one really visits my blog besides those stupid tagboard spammers, but there are times when you just feel like... You wanna say something, on your own little platform. But gahhhhh I was just so lazy -.-

There were times during the past few days when so much so much crossed my mind. Maybe its repetitive to what I have already blogged before, or maybe Ive gotten additional perspectives. But in me, there just seems to be an overwhelming amount of feelings once my trigger point is reached.

Maybe its cuz Ive been watching shows these few days ( specifically autumn concerto OKOK I KNOW IM SLOW LOL ) and it made me feel like... Reality is nothing like a drama. Cliche-ly speaking, reality probably reflects a drama. But dramas ALWAYS end off happy, but reality doesnt turn out to be that way. Reality is somewhat cruel and hey, if reality really shadows a drama, I'd think that all pain and suffering is worth it. Sacrifice, love, care- Genuine, without hesitation. But its sad how it wont happen, and well when tears come along it reminds me of everything worth being sad about -.-

Or maybe its cuz its the end of june, which means theres only a month left to august, the beginning of school. I think Ive mentioned this before but its scaring me more and more to think of the fact that school is gonna start, AFRESH, STRANGE, without familiar faces, without dependable people. Not knowing who to be wary of, and who is worth a friendship with. Not knowing if someone would come and tell you ( we ) ( love ) ( you ) when youre crying, or if someone would actually help you with your work when you miss school, or if anyone would know what youre talking about when you say you wanna cp. I know that whining doesnt help, nor does it help to change anything, but meh, I really dont dare to think how school will be like without my babies, without 7a, without my familiar comfort zone. Yes I know I'll make friends but GAHHHH, it still scares me to think of school life without them. Bu ke yiiiiii :'(

OR maybe its cuz my birthday is approaching. Its just a couple of days to third of july and gah Im feeling eeky about it. I mean yeah I know its like, birthday NIA, but it kinda signifies how I officially turn 19 and how Im one step closer to becoming a grownup, and having to handle greater responsibilities, think about things that weigh much more than whatever bothers me now. It may be something more than that, though.

OR maybe its cuz Im just feeling lonely and restless without company. No one to stay up till 5am with me, no one to talk cock with me on msn.... Changes, are inevitable. Since a long time ago, Ive had my share of company, having fun doing various things together. But since a long time ago, at different periods of time, it has been different people taking up these roles. The world is moving on, and time simply stops for no one. After some time, things just fade away, easier than you think it would.


I pretty much did NOTHING the past few days, besides meeting lober on thursday to buy look choop at golden mile, followed by shopping at bugis ( HAHAHA SO HAPPY TO SEE HER BUYING STUFF :X ) and then dinner :) Besides that I spent saturday catching up with guanhao after I haven seen him for years, and had my first ever lunch at coffee bean. Coffee bean isnt too bad actually, its not entirely about coffee, which is good cuz I hate coffee HAHA


And... I will probably be doing nothing much the next few days as well. LOL. I hate this restless feeling but there is really NOTHING for me to do -.-

Okay before I go, dont you think this is beautifullllllllll (: